第一篇的心里话

家事不可外扬　这道理我知道
可是偏偏在最近　我已经感觉不到　家·的味道了
它的味道　究竟是怎样的呢　我已经寻找不回了
原本是你们之间的问题　如今竟然造成我也有问题了
我的思想　我对你们的态度　已经慢慢的在改变了
我不晓得最近没心情是不是因为你们　可是我已经对你们的事情　不想再加以理会了
最近我都在想　我是不是在这个家　做了我的本分　就应该了
我的本分　是读书　过后去做工或者补习　然后交钱给你们　
就是这些吗？　我觉得　我没有必要再多做什么了
要把心里话告诉你们　一来你们坚持你们的原则　二来我也不是那么勇敢　告诉我的想法
可是就是因为我的懦弱　让我对这个家有了另一种方法
之前你们吵架　我竟然有一种冲动想叫你们离婚　
我不晓得这是多年来的日月累积还是什么　可是我却在那天就有那种冲动
第二天我把这件事情告诉智升　然后他把一些道理传授给我
我以为　我真得可以把这件事情忘了　可是我发现
他的道理　已经对我没有效了　我越来越不知道我的方向了
在不知道该怎么做了
今天买了那么多美容产品　你真的把握骂了一顿
我知道我这次花得很过分　你不要我的辛苦赚来的钱就这样花掉
可是就是因为这样　而且这也是我最后一次出街了
所以我是真得没有机会再碰这些东西了　要解放就在今天啊！！
可是你从来不知道　我喜欢的东西　就是这些
我可以宁愿把钱花在美容产品　也不花在服装上
因为我就是爱美容！！　我曾经幻想过自己可以像女人我最大的牛尔老师一样
晓得那么多美容的东西　也想过要读美容这科　可是你会允许吗
我说要读美发　其实我的心更加向往美容　我希望可以把这些重要的知识
把这些可以让人变得水水的知识告诉大家　让大家有自信
可是这些事情　你们又懂吗？　身为父母的　你们究竟是了解多少
你们到底懂多少啊？　我们在学校的成绩　你们又懂多少？
我们不开口　你们就不问了吗？　
我已经算长大了　我经常告诉自己　不要跟别人的父母做比较
但是相对的　让我看到这种情形　你们能保证我真得不能做比较　不能想多吗？
曾经我以为我真的有一个蛮幸福的家庭　但事实已经摆在眼前　这都是我的幻想

最近的我选择了沉默多于发表．．．．．．．．．．
我已经开始失去了以前的我．．．．．．
已经不再是出自内心笑的人了


这就是以前的我

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today go sg wang and times square lurr~~
go wif xien , penny n xien geh boi ~~~
wakaka~~ today out thr geh aim 1st is xien want meet her boi
2rd is i wan to shopping ~~ hooray ~~ wakaka
today morning about 8am woke up jo lurr ~~ so eary what ==
then 晒衣服 ~~ n take my bath bath lorr ~~ wear my clothes nicely
then was the moment that make my head big big !!! what shoes should i wear?
high heel shoes or 帆布鞋?? i decide wear high heel shoes n bring my 帆布鞋 oso~~
but but but~~ which high heel shoes should i wear? block or white?
i so like the white colour ~~ bcox hv 蝴蝶结~~ although i hate n scare butterfly vy muchie
but it is so cute ~~ n taiwan's shoes now mz hv 蝴蝶结 oo~~ cox tis is fashion !! hehe ^^v
at last i chose the black colour one ~~ bcox the white colour geh quite 松~~

my shoes ~~ makss

before go shopping ^^

me oso ~~ quite ugly ==

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then about 10am me n xien walk to bus stop lurr but it is too hot !!!! hell ~~

our sweat just like the rain ~~ can imagine how hot is it?!!! hmm ~~

finally v reached the bus stop n waiting for the bus ~~ v go thr by metro 100 ~~ rm1 only

v go chow kit n go times square by monorail lorr ~~

when v reached times square for 5 or 6 mins , xien's boi oso reached
but he reached lot 10 !! cox he come from genting ~~ so he duno here ~~

but v feel he quite brave cox dare to come here alone ~~

for me? sure cry cry cry == scare got 怪伯伯 hehe ^^

den v walked from times square to sg wang !! i stil wear the high heel shoes neh !!!

my leg cannot afford nehh!! @@ phew ~~~ so pain ~~ so lucky i hv bring my plaster !!

wakakaka ~~ although hv plaster oso .... it is still pain !!!!

well ~~ 爱美需要付出代价的~~~ den v go sg wang n wait penny come lurr~~

　c my stupiak leg after back home !!

if not i cannot tahan xien n her boi lik this lurr ~~ v go mcd lorr

sit n keng gai ~~ intro ourself == haha ~~ den i 55 sms to penny ask her 55 come from church

so lucky when i sms her , she oso ready to come here jo~~ wakaka~

well ~~ thr hv something fish... ~~ haha~~ bcox v go times square monorail fetch penny
but she said she reach sg wang geh == nvm lorr she said she come ts by monorail again==

so me xien n her boi go bbq plaza 1st lorr ~~ wakaka~~~

　dino <<<>

_____________PROCESS OF HAVING OUR BBQ ^^__________

finally finish our bbq ~~ so nice wif penny's recipi ~~ the source ~~

nice nice ~~ source + lemon ~~ then the meat together wif the source n bbq it

i like it man !!!! hehe ~~ at last v did something weird ~~ hehehe

cawaii ? == hehe

_____________STARTED TO SHOPPING LURR____________

penny buy pants in ts but i buy nth at thr ~~

ohhh !! me, xien n penny buy same tee ~~ how come i can forget this neh ><

so cawaii ~~ v straight wear after buy it ~~ so v three ~~~ == same tee !!!
the tee is rm11.90 lurr okok larr~~ hehe

main character is our tee ~~ nt me !! haha

then v go SASA ... actually is me wanna go thr ~~ i wan go c the price of oxymask
my god ~~ when i go thr n ask the ppl ~~ she showed me ~~ she vr pro ~~
n say all the ciri of oxy mask !!! she applied it on my hand ~~ yorr
the liquid will bcom bubbles neh ~~ although i noe it la ~~ but i din try b4 marr
yerr ~~ so 神奇arrr ~~~ but the price ~~ more nice lorr
rm 198.90 == c c c ~~ my last last article hv showed the picture ~~
so small only nid 198.90 but i noe la all inside the bottle is oxygen la ~~
that's why it called oxy mask lurr ~~ n that's why the price so expensive ==
aiksssss ~~ so i give up this lurr ~~ the price oready make me moody jo lurr ~~
so i decide go sg wang n go buy skin food !! bcox i really beh tahan !!!
no shirt ngam sui so i must buy facial products !!
i go SKIN FOOD !! my favourite facial shop ~~ it is from korea ~~
go buy sleeping mask !! rm 76.90.. den walk around the shop again ~~
i saw the tomato product!!! so cawaii ~~ buy the night cream ~~
it is gel form n fresh ~~ i wana buy tomato products long time jo lurr~~ haha
den c the chili slim body cream ~~ i buy it again ~~ all of this 3 items
the price is.... rm196.70 ~~ expensive oso ~~ buy i can use this for 3 items
for the oxymask? one oready bye bye jo == hehe

n i get the free towel ~~ cox above rm180
but i noe when i back home i sure kena diao jo de larr
bo bian ~~ i wan buy skin food product to 平服my mood !!!

neh neh neh~~ my skin food products~~

i get the free mushroom bb cream n honey?foam ^^v

the free towel ~~

　my tomato night cream ~~ yea

　i hv 2 loyalty card lurr ~~ i love u~~

　i hv buy a cloth oso ~~ rm25 ^^ i feel like princess

then v walk n walk n walk ~~ i suddenly bcom moody again ~~ but i din showed all ~~
just showed the tired face only ~~ penny oso beh tahan jo~
she wan find a place n sit jo~~ so v go mcd again ~~
eat mc flurry ~~ thx xien boi for belanja us lurr ~~ hehe
then v keep asking them kiss in front us hahaha~~ so funny
but it happened when i paste new plaster on my wound !! so kanasai
penny keep dok me n i just shouted pain only ~~
then when i dongak my head ~~ i found that they are kissing ==
now i just noe why she keep dok me == hahaha ~~ but i so shy to c this.... ==
well~~ v keep ask them kiss for 2nd time ~~ n they do again ==
den can balik rumah lurr~~ finally ~~ my leg can relax jo lurr ~~ hahaha
but.. when v waiting for the train they kiss again == so.. kanasai
i just can say this == KANASAI MAN !!!

so... just like this .. our half day had past ~~
wif full of fish n funny memory ~~ hehehe
waiting the scold from my mom == cox of skin food ==

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HAPPIE DAY N XXX DAY ~~~~

sorry for the stupid thing

Gloomy sunday-Sarah Brightman

Sunday is gloomy ! 星期天是令人沮丧的！
My hours are slumberless.我的末日即将来临。
Dearest,the shadows I live with are numberless.我最亲爱的,我生活的庇护所无穷无尽。
Little white flowers will never awaken U.白色的小花将不再能唤醒你。
Not where the black coach of sorrow has taken U.黑色的由忧伤组成的轿车(灵车)不再承载着你了。
Angels have no thought of ever returning U.天使也将不再回护你。
Would they be angry if I thought of joining U ? 他们是不是因为我想加入你的行列而被激怒了？

Gloomy Sunday ! 绝望的星期天！

Sunday is gloomy ! 星期天是令人沮丧的！
With shadows I spend it all.我将把它与阴影一起消磨待尽。
My heart & I have decided 2 end it all.我与我的心都认为这就是它的终结。
Soon there'll be flowers & prayers.很快这里的鲜花和祷文.
That are sad I know.它们是令人伤心的,我知道。
Let them not weep.将使他们悲痛到无语咛咽。
Let them know that I'm glad 2 go.让他们知道我很高兴离开了这里。
Death is no dream.逝了就不会再做梦。
For in death I'm caressing U.因为有我在毁灭中爱抚着你。
With the last breath of my soul.用发自肺腑的最后一口气。
I'll be blessing U.我将祝福你。

Gloomy Sunday ! 绝望的星期天！

Dreaming ! 梦中！

I was only dreaming.我只是在梦中。

I wake & I find.我醒来并发现。
U asleep in the deep of my heart ! 你在我心里深深地熟睡着！
Dear ! 亲爱的！

Darling,I hope that my dream never haunted U.亲爱的,我希望我的梦不会折磨你。
My heart is telling U.我的心已经告诉你。
How much I wanted U.我是多么的需要你。

Gloomy Sunday ! 绝望的星期天！

Gloomy Sunday ! 绝望的星期天！


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这首歌
曾经带来了不好的东西
那个作词人写了这首歌后就自杀了
后来人听了这首歌 也因为它的旋律和歌词都很悲
所以导致了100人自杀
想不到一首歌竟然会带来那么多的反应

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今天心情也不是很好
今天竟然说了一个谎
我不知道这个谎是否上了对方
但听到对方的反应
我真的很后悔为什么会这么说
其实也不是一个谎
只是用另一种方式拒绝而已
对方不是别人 就是我的补习老师

_________________STORY TIME ^^_________________

自从初二开始
经过我姐朋友的介绍 我们俩都在那里补英文和国文
我在那里跟老师相处的时间真得很久
4年了 她的性格是怎样我也知道了
她的华语很差 会把床说成船的人 目前遇到的只有她 ==
喜欢给同学听写 一直重复听写直到我们会为止
时不时说一些性的东西 ^^v
让要听写的我们 也因为说这些废话而浪费时间 不用听写
她 真得是一个很好的老师

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偏偏就在今天 我竟然对她说了谎
我说我不能再在那里补国文了 因为要补别的地方
可是事实上并不是这样的
因为我是真的不要补国文了
1 form 4 & form 5在学校我遇到了好老师 她很会教
2 我不是要诋毁她的名誉 只是我会认为她的komsas教得不是很好 不是那么详细
偏偏作文却教得死鬼好!!!!!
3 金钱问题 一科rm70 我补两科就要rm140了 因为有做工 所以妈咪叫我自己给 本人是嫌贵
就因为这三种原因 让我想在那里不要补国文
当我告诉老师时 她吓到了
她说本来还想好好的磨炼我 让我得到A1
可是现在却在半途中说要退出
听到她这么说我真得很伤心 我怎么能够让她对我有信心的时候 却说要离开哪里呢？
[现在听着分开以后 虽然不是失恋 可是眼眶的泪水在打转着==]
她无话可说 很失望 ~~ [目前的心情很复杂 很想大哭大哭！！！]
最后她还说假期是要来补习吗？ 因为之前有欠我几堂课 而且还是免费的
我听到这个我当然说要啦 我没有理由再拒绝了 ~~
听到她这样问 我的心·凉了
终于像失恋的那种感觉 又回来了~~ 好久好久没有那么伤心了
很幸运的没有在当场哭了出来 不然那么多同学 一定会很鱼的吧

当然 放学在走路到门口的同时
想了很多 最后的决定
我不能辜负老师的新意
我不能这么无情
我选择了继续呆在那里
这因为这次 让我更加知道 我遇对了老师 而且是一个好老师


国文&英文已经是我的目标了~~
当然还有add math咯~~
还有还有sejarah moral！！

加油艾娣!!!!! 你一定行！！！！

Beauty Talk氧氣面膜膠 vs Skin Food sleeping mask

九大保養特色
1.修護、2.清潔、3.保濕：4.滋潤、5.緊緻、6.白皙、7.溫和去角質、8.平衡肌膚油脂、9.補充氧氣。
Beauty Talk氧氣面膜膠含有高含氧精華與溫和清潔素，就能夠補充肌膚氧氣同時清潔肌膚表面汙垢，
而內含金縷梅萃取液能平衡油脂分泌，還有玻尿酸、南極菌萃取物，海洋澱粉萃取物、微晶去角質素、
透明質酸、深層保濕因子與深海保濕因子等滋潤成份，為肌膚達到修護、保溼、滋潤同時溫和去角質的
功效；其中更特別添加小分子除皺素，它能夠深入肌膚撫平細紋，使肌膚更加緊實、充滿彈力，瓶身更
特別以真空包裝的貼心設計，不但能清楚看見剩餘的面膜膠、更絕不浪費的用到最後一滴；讓你隨時隨
地擁有透潤光澤的好肌質、散發好魅力。



versus



含豆奶萃取精華能滋養肌膚，給予肌膚全方位的修護，而添加的明星成分-玻尿酸鈉為高效優質的保濕因子，能夠幫助肌膚有效鎖水保濕，增加肌膚長時間的保水能力，深層修護，淡化細紋，是目前公認最好的保濕劑之一。可為肌膚捕捉大量水分，改善乾燥細紋的肌膚，能在夜晚持續供給肌膚營養，集中保濕、重整肌膚、完美平衡，恢復青春活力美肌。睡眠的同時進行深層修護，讓乾燥及細紋的肌膚變得柔滑細緻。含有舒緩肌膚效用極佳的腺甘酸，能有效改善乾燥及細紋的膚質。豆奶發酵萃取物，極佳的抗氧化功效，可預防肌膚老化。





one is Beauty Talk氧氣面膜膠 one is my favourite SKIN FOOD geh sleeping mask
my goodness i duno want to buy which one neh!!!
but i know both of this ar expensive~~~
Beauty Talk氧氣面膜膠 i can buy from SASA , SASA is international de marrr
so the price sure not so cheap de lurrrr
but this is very hot product neh~~taiwan 女人我最大牛尔老师intro de neh~~
i wan buy this for long time jo neh~~but no chance to go~~
then is the sleeping mask ~~ i thk is rm80 ~~
hmm~~~ both oso not cheap de neh~~ what should i choose?
give me suggestion ~~~~~
gonna faint ~~

端午节快乐＋假期快乐

yesterday my dad's friend take rice dumpling for us~~
take 7 for us~~haha my family ngam ngam hv 7 members lurrr~
each person eat one ~ it is fair ~~ hehe ^^v
my goodness it is too nice~~ so many mushroom [im lovin it]
it is still hot de neh !!! so nice ~~
but i dun like is the rice dumpling is 重口味的
although it is nice but i feel my mom's dumpling is the best !!!!! ^^

　　<<重口味的dumpling


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today i didnt go to skul~~ break for two days ^^
today is DUAN WU JIE so need to bai bai ~~
cox today putus air on 10am till 6pm
so mumi so early n wake up cook the [breakfast]
so many breakfast nid to cook neh~~
so i decide 6.30am wake up n help mumi cook

----------------------PROCESS OF COOKING----------------------------------


after finish cooking can start bai bai lurrrrrr
v r very hungry ~~ just wait finish bai bai n makan makan ~~


______________START TO MAKAN LURRR______________________

c c c in the square table have so many food ~~ hehe
square table is not enough to menampung this food ~~~ kakaka
but my mumi cook geh food are really delicious nehhh~~
expecially the chili for chicken ~~ nice yooo ~~ spicy ~~



n this petai ~~ wakaka~~ i noe wie xin like to eat sambal petai geh
hahaha~~today i hv KOU FU lurr~~
nice nice nice~~~



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after eat too much ==
sure nid to drink chinese tea larrr wakaka!!!!
it is important for me bcox i really nid to keep fit from now !!!!
yesterday i watch LADIES FIRST ~~ is about keep fit geh
i saw a girl keep from 80 to 40 something neh~~
waliao nehhhh ~~ so i wan do it oso ~~ wakaka ~~ add oil !!!!



enjoy holiday ya my friends ~~~

27/5/09 - horay

hohoho today lasi day lor~~ no more diagnostic exam lurr~~ [but stil hv trial!!!]
phew~~~ relief relief ~~ wakaka .. but how about my exam?
acc paper 1? erm..okok la.. cincai do lo..
pjk? what a nice pjk exam!! luckily is our add math teacher period ~~bcox...
v DO PENCIL !! wakakaa~~~ cox all duno hw to do ~~ then just lihat sebelah lorr
wakaka~~~ wei xin n penny take the books come out n see the answers..
whole class were discussing the answer ~~ funny n happie neh~~
our pn. noor asleenah just bz to mark our exam paper 2 ..
so she oso didnt mention too much on what we are doing ~~
she just keep asking us to sleep cox v just spent without 5 mins to do the paper~~
hahahaa~~ n penny ar , me ar, pei hoong ar , demi ar walk to teacher's table thr
n see her to mark our paper~~ my goodness~~ i saw my paper!!!
yerrr~~ my coordinate!!!! y-intercept is 4 but my coordinate thr write (4,0)!!!
what the hell~~~ y i can do this such stupiak thing !!!! arghhh!!!! lost my marks ar~~
TT cry cry cry~~ sad sad sad ~~ my arithmetic progresstion oso wrong!!!
so sad~~ i think this time de add math paper is damn bad !!! wuwuwu~~

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thx annchi for the australia bear bear n cadbury choco lorr~~
her mom go australia n she take the buah tangan for us~~
hehehe~~ thx ya~~~ makssss




when i eat the choco it is already like this!!==

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holiday we plan to go picnic at Titiwangsa ~~
wakaka~~~ however at starting when v discussed i felt so happy to hear this plan
but dunoo why i felt moody again ~~ waliao!!! i thk this month im so easy to moody
I DUNO WHY AR!!!!!!!!!!!! who can help me? i duno the reason at all!! HELL~~~
hmm~~i hv told cham when the class are finished ~ she said im easy to high n easy to moody
ya ya~~ i agree what she said ~~ im exactly this kind ppl ~~
but this situatio on the last few years not so noticeable ~~ but this year!! so noticeable what!!
hmm~~ i hope i can use this holiday to maintain my mood as usual ~~ cant be like tis!!
i will try my best to do it ya~~~ but oso nid to say sorry to my friends ya~~


continue my sexy pic !! haha >.<

no surprise

Daughtry-No Surprise

I've practiced this for hours,gone round and round

And now I think that I've got it all down

And as I say it louder I love how it sounds

Cause I'm not taking the easy way out

Not wrapping this in ribbons

Shouldn't have to give a reason why...
It's NO SURPRISE I won't be here tomorrow

I can't believe that I stayed till today

Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow

But I know in time we'll find this was NO SURPRISE
It came out like a river once I let it out

When I thought that I wouldn't know how

Held onto it forever just pushing it down

Felt so good to let go of it now

Not wrapping this in ribbons

Shouldn't have to give a reason why
It's NO SURPRISE I won't be here tomorrow

I can't believe that I stayed till today

There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow

There's nothing here in this soul left to say

Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow

God know we tried to find an easier way

Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow

But I know in time we'll find this was NO SURPRISE

Our favorite place we used to go

The warm embrace that no one knows

The loving look that's left your eyes

That's why this comes as no,as NO SURPRISE

If I could see the future and how this plays outI bet it's better than where we are now

But after going through this,it's easier to see the reason why
It's NO SURPRISE I won't be here tomorrow

I can't believe that I stayed till today

Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow

But I know in time we'll find this was NO SURPRISE

Our favorite place we used to go

The warm embrace that no one knows

The loving look that's left your eyes

But I know in time we'll find this was NO SURPRISE

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yea~~ from daughtry - no surprise!!!!

last time i heard it is from American Idol

this is his new album's song~~~

nice man~~

support~~